Secretly Delighted

Can I tell you a secret? A secret that might hurt my husband's feelings a little bit...I'm not sure. When Carli Grace is screaming with him and I pick her up and she calms down I'm secretly delighted. Is that awful? Am I a bad wife? Last night my girl got up around 11:30, which is SO not the norm. I heard her. I heard Mike get up with her (he was still awake watching TV and I was sleeping). I heard her fuss, cry, scream. I heard him try and try. I got up. Walked in and picked her up a for a few brief moments she calmed just being with me and in that moment I thought - yeah, cause I'm the mommy, that's why. Now she went back to crying a bit because her belly was upset, but as a general rule I just calm her more.

It isn't that I want to hurt his feelings. And it isn't that I'm not equally delighted when say....not naming names here...but say, Aunt Bridget has her crying and I accomplish the same thing. It's anyone. I am in LOVE with the fact that I'm my girl's favorite right now. I know kids go through stages. I know I won't always be her favorite. And quite honestly I am sometimes shocked that she doesn't prefer Mike. But considering my recent return to work. And considering that five days a week she spends more awake hours with Daddy, Pa Pa, or Megan it THRILLS me that I'm still the ultimate calming force in her life.

I just don't get it. How does she know? How can she only be awake with me three and a half hours a night, five days a week and still be calmed by me? Would it be the same if I wasn't the one getting up in the middle of the night (which is NOT a dig...I LOVE getting up with her)? I mean the reality of our house is that Mike changes just as many diapers and feeds just as many bottles - possibly more since he is home with her twice a week. And I really worried going back to work that I would be terribly jealous of his time with her and in some ways I am. But honestly, I don't think I could take it if he was the calming force in the house as well. I would feel like my job was stolen. So secretly, or not so secretly now, I smile inside when only Mommy will do.


  1. I hear ya...There are times where i am "secretly Delighted" also! But there are times where I just want her to go to Daddy too! It is amazing how they just want "mommy" to calm them down!


  2. I'm right there with both of you. While Jenna is only 3 weeks old, sometimes I'm "secretly delighted" as well that only mommy will do.


  3. Completely understand, and guilty of the same thing! They know their mommies, that is for sure! Could have something to do with living in our tummies for 9 months too... :)

  4. Oops! That was Kelly, forgot to sign :)